The verse 4 of the song:
Huominen päivä jos kädestä Herran, joillekin meistä viel lahjoitetaan.
|: Rukoillaan rohkeutta ihmisen verran, sielulla sielua koskettamaan. :|
Rough English translation: If tomorrow will still be given to some of us by the hand of the Lord, let us pray to have a person's amount of courage, to let our soul touch one another.
Again the translation does not convey the message, I'm afraid. The poem is beautifully picturing something, a prayer, a deep wish. Whenever I've sang this, it has acted as a prayer by me to my Lord. I am sincere. I pray I can have the courage to let my soul out, to open myself up, so that I can touch someone else's soul, experience a piece of real life together. The hard part is not the latter one but the first one: to open up myself. To dare to live, dare to reach out, dare to put myself into other people's skin and experience what they are going through. Dare to give up, dare to surrender, submit, dare to cry in front of others, dare to hold true to true convictions, dare to suffer.
What a powerful prayer, and I'm such a weakling praying it. The irony lies in the honesty that I don't even necessarily want the courage to dare, because it implies pain, difficulties, tears. Then again, I long for the fellowship, the deep unity with my Lord and people around me, which would be impossible if I just live in my on restricted world without opening up myself. I don't want to have only small-talk, fake smiles, superficial chats. I want to be sincere, true to every person I encounter. I want to be encountered by sincere people, true to themselves and willing to share their lives with me.
No one is worthy, but hopefully there are people who are willing, I want to be willing.
One problem in my daily life is time, I'm not available to people, due to job, need for sleep, food, time with family. I am limited. That's why the prayer for courage, so that I would be able to choose for the time I do have according to what I desire, not according to what by pleasure-seeking "flesh" desires. Ah the wonders of spiritual world, the true reality behind the visible scenes. If only, if only I could learn to remain true to my Lord and true to myself, then perhaps also learn to be true to people around me.
Lord, if you still grant me days in this world, please give me courage to lead a life full of your splendour. A life worth living and each moment well treasured. I pray that I can share you and share myself to others, I pray that I can live with others in deep fellowship. I pray I can start with myself, my family, and extend to people I deal with everyday. I pray that you give me the wisdom to use my time, my little energy and ability that you have granted me, to achieve the dreams you installed into my spirit. I pray I can become a vessel to help others to achieve the dreams you have put into their hearts. Thank you Lord for caring, thank you for sustaining, thank you for making this life worth living.
And one day, this is already partially jumping to the last part of the song, there will be no more sorrow, no more weakness, no more dissatisfaction, for you will have fulfilled everything. Everything. The grandeur of you is what I long to exist in.
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