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A drop there and a drop here, drops of life run into vast oceans of life. This is a place for thoughts and ideas, questions and answers, experiences and expressions, a place to be cherished.
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Saturday, August 22, 2009
Relentless
I don't know how normal it is, to be relentless.
Actually I had to look up the word in the dictionary, and it didn't really correspond to my original understanding of the word. The dictionary says:implacable, inflexible, inexorable, or sustained, unremitting... In another word, a relentless person is a hard person to deal with.
Ok, another word, restless.
I've used this other word to describe myself, but not recently. However, it is an apt description of me anyhow. I've been a bit restless, nothing visible, but deep down inside.
The story goes back to the time we returned from China trip, that was 5th of August, c. 2 weeks ago. At that time I was really really tired, I've spent 3.5 weeks in China, in the heat and traveling, talking, discussing, caring, leading, guiding, preparing... The whole time, almost the whole time, I didn't slow down or really had peaceful / quiet time of my own. From my earlier experience, I know this combination of heat, busyness, and constant change is going to hurt, at some point.
Well it hit home when I got home. In a way I was really relieved to return to Finland, to the peace and quietness, to have some time of my own, so I could read Bible, draw close to God and come back to terms with myself and Him and the world. But it wasn't that easy. Despite the seemingly quietness, peacefulness, nothing happens by itself. I haven't been able to really reach the equilibrium I've wanted, not that I know what kind of state I want to reach, but that I know I'm not in a state I want to be.
This shift or displacement has begun way earlier in the Spring time already. Barely visible or noticeable, it strikes in little by little, until it is revealed and observed. I basically woke up to this already earlier, but didn't have any time to do anything about it. Absurd. Then last Tuesday in the prayer meeting at chrch, a young guy testified about his experience, that he had lead a life of faith, seeking to serve and seeking the guidance of God. But recently he came to understand, or God had revealed to him, that he had forgotten to seek God Himself, but rather seeking only the outer things: place to serve, future, friends, acceptance of men. Nothing wrong itself, but really, when man loses the point, it doesn't help no matter what good things man tries to achieve.
Now I've found the problem, actually it's been in my mind for a while already: I am too busy. I have been successful in many ways, which has lead to doing a lot of good things, but forgetting or actually distancing myself from the most important: my beloved Father, my Lord and Saviour, my Counselor and Constant Helper. Without the relationship, whatever I have or do don't have any meaning.
So, I want to get back to the basics, the relationship with God, with Jesus. Not only know how to lead a godly life, but really getting into the source of that godly life.
Easier said than done, but fortunately it's not about me, but all about Him. Lord have mercy, Lord will have mercy. Amen.
It's all about You, Jesus
And all this is for You,
For Your glory and Your fame
It's not about me, as if You should do things my way
You alone are God and I surrender
To Your Ways.
Actually I had to look up the word in the dictionary, and it didn't really correspond to my original understanding of the word. The dictionary says:implacable, inflexible, inexorable, or sustained, unremitting... In another word, a relentless person is a hard person to deal with.
Ok, another word, restless.
I've used this other word to describe myself, but not recently. However, it is an apt description of me anyhow. I've been a bit restless, nothing visible, but deep down inside.
The story goes back to the time we returned from China trip, that was 5th of August, c. 2 weeks ago. At that time I was really really tired, I've spent 3.5 weeks in China, in the heat and traveling, talking, discussing, caring, leading, guiding, preparing... The whole time, almost the whole time, I didn't slow down or really had peaceful / quiet time of my own. From my earlier experience, I know this combination of heat, busyness, and constant change is going to hurt, at some point.
Well it hit home when I got home. In a way I was really relieved to return to Finland, to the peace and quietness, to have some time of my own, so I could read Bible, draw close to God and come back to terms with myself and Him and the world. But it wasn't that easy. Despite the seemingly quietness, peacefulness, nothing happens by itself. I haven't been able to really reach the equilibrium I've wanted, not that I know what kind of state I want to reach, but that I know I'm not in a state I want to be.
This shift or displacement has begun way earlier in the Spring time already. Barely visible or noticeable, it strikes in little by little, until it is revealed and observed. I basically woke up to this already earlier, but didn't have any time to do anything about it. Absurd. Then last Tuesday in the prayer meeting at chrch, a young guy testified about his experience, that he had lead a life of faith, seeking to serve and seeking the guidance of God. But recently he came to understand, or God had revealed to him, that he had forgotten to seek God Himself, but rather seeking only the outer things: place to serve, future, friends, acceptance of men. Nothing wrong itself, but really, when man loses the point, it doesn't help no matter what good things man tries to achieve.
Now I've found the problem, actually it's been in my mind for a while already: I am too busy. I have been successful in many ways, which has lead to doing a lot of good things, but forgetting or actually distancing myself from the most important: my beloved Father, my Lord and Saviour, my Counselor and Constant Helper. Without the relationship, whatever I have or do don't have any meaning.
So, I want to get back to the basics, the relationship with God, with Jesus. Not only know how to lead a godly life, but really getting into the source of that godly life.
Easier said than done, but fortunately it's not about me, but all about Him. Lord have mercy, Lord will have mercy. Amen.
It's all about You, Jesus
And all this is for You,
For Your glory and Your fame
It's not about me, as if You should do things my way
You alone are God and I surrender
To Your Ways.
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